Our Sweet Angel

A remembrance site for our daughter Leela Mary Deome

Our Sweet Angel Girl

  • September 10, 2011 4:18 pm

Always Remembered, Never Forgotten

  • September 7, 2011 7:51 pm

We Love you Our Sweet Angel Girl 

 

 

 

Leela & Mommy’s Story~ Fly Free Bay Girl

  • September 7, 2011 7:43 pm

We Wanted A Girl So Much, He Gave Us Two

It was a very important day; I was 19 weeks, and on our way to find out if we were having a boy or girl. I knew that there was a little girl in there, but what I didn’t know, or even could imagine, was that there were two of them!  My hands on my face, and dad’s head to the wall, and big brother’s jaw on the floor.” Its twins” they say!  Boy or girl we didn’t know, “their lying on top of each other” is what the lady said.

For as long as I can remember, I have always wanted a boy, then a little girl. I never thought in a million years that I would have two little girls. At 22 weeks and 1 day, identical twin girls were reviled! Every one that I told said “Jennie, you wanted a girl so bad, that God gave you two of them!  

Shortly after falling in love with my big belly, our daughters would soon arrive. At 25 weeks they decided it was time. 15 weeks to soon!

At 1205 pm on January 19th 2011 our angel, Leela Mary was born, her best friend and cuddle partner for many weeks, and our Miracle, came right after, little Mary Anastasia. Both weighing less than 2 pounds and only a foot long.   So tiny and not so strong. This would be the happiest day but yet the worst day of our lives!

Daddy sits in the nicu, Leela on one side and Mary on the other.  I’m still trying to wake up from the anesthesia and being wheeled to recovery. I sit and wait. Big brother and grand parents sit in waiting room, scared and nervous.

Doctor’s and nurses run back and forth, from one room to the other, trying to save our tiny daughters lives.   But our sweet little Leela was slipping away, at 1320 pm, she had a different plan.  I believe that she left her tiny; see though body to go by her sister’s side, to snuggle one more time. To whisper in her ear, “its time for me to go, I have done what I was sent to do. Be strong sis, our family needs you! I am your angel now and I will be by you side always, so go fight and fight hard!” That’s just what our Miracle Mary did! “She’s a feisty one,” they all would say! 

I have said from day one, that Leela was the driver and our little Mary was the passenger. Leela needed to make sure that Mary got here safe and sound! You see, Mary just didn’t want to come alone!

They placed Leela in my arms; even though I never saw my daughter breathing, I could see that she did something very special and very important.  She some how told me that everything was going to be ok!  I gave her back to the nurse so she could get her pictures taken.  Soon after, a Respiratory nurse, walked in with Mary, her name was ANGEL! Mary was in a travel incubator, wrapped in plastic wrap. I touched her tiny big toe.” Its time to go” they said.

Thank you so much my sweet angel, for taking such good care of your twin sis! Mommy and daddy love you so much!

This blog is one of the hardest things I will ever have to write! When reading, remember, I’m not a writer I’m a mommy who had to say goodbye!

I love you angel!

The loss of a child is a life shattering experience. Little can prepare you for the emotional trauma suffered in such circumstances or for the physical and mental pain of adjustment in the aftermath. ‘Letting go’ after death is often the most challenging situation you will ever face.

The Light Of The Moon

  • September 7, 2011 7:24 pm

January 19th 2011

Saying Goodbye

It’s time to say goodbye
and we don’t understand why
today is the day we lay
our little girl to rest
everyone knows she was the best
she is our angle our dream come true
her twin sister is our miracle

and we are here to comfort you
though today we say goodbye
just remember she never really dies
for in our hearts her spirit lies
if she could talk I know she’d say
mommy daddy brother and

sister too please don’t cry
for I am not gone I’m flying high
I’m that brand new twinkle in the sky
I know one day I’ll see you again
and until then
hold your heads up high
and just remember I’m standing by
for I’m the light of the moon
and the sunlight in the sky
so please be strong and it won’t be long
till we’re together again
love your little girl

And my twin sisters angle too

Leela Mary Deome

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To My Sister Angel Of Love

  • September 7, 2011 7:00 pm

 Twin A. Leela   ~  Twin B. Mary  

Sisters

God sent us to be twin sisters
So we can be best of friends
To be there for one another
Even when there is pain

I thank the Lord for sending you with me my  sister
For whom I truly love and can never forget
We shared mommy’s belly together
So warm and cozy full of love

You will always mean more to me,More than you’ll ever know

You gave your life to me, so you can watch me grow

I know you’re my angel now

I will never let go!

Love your sister Mary

 

 

 

In His Arms, By Mommy

  • September 7, 2011 3:33 pm


Lullabies
Daddy please don`t look so sad,
Mommy please don`t cry.
I am in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies.
Please do not try to question God,
don`t think He is unkind.
Don`t think He sent me to you and that
He changed His mind.
You see, I am special
and I`m needed up above.
I`m the special child you gave Him,
the product of your love.
I`ll always be there with you.
So watch the sky at night.
Find the brightest star that`s gleaming.
That`s my halo`s brilliant light.
So Daddy please don`t look so sad.
Mommy please don`t cry.
I am in the arms of Jesus.
And He sings me lullabies.

God Has You In His keeping, By Mommy

  • September 5, 2011 10:33 pm

Thinking of You with Love

We thought of you with love today,
but that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
and days before that too.
We think of you in silence,
we often speak your name.
All we have are memories,
and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
with which we will never part.
God has you in His keeping,
we have you in our hearts.
A million times we`ve wanted you.
A million times we cried.
If love could only have saved you,
you never would have died.
It broke our hearts to lose you.
But you didn`t go alone.
For a part of us went with you…
the day God called you Home!

Tears Fall,By Mommy

  • September 4, 2011 6:24 pm

Tears

If tears could build a stairway,
and memories a lane,
I’d walk right up to Heaven
and bring you home again.
No farewell words were spoken
no time to say goodbye
you were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.
My heart still aches in sadness
and secret tears still flow,
what it meant to lose you,
no one will ever know.

Poem By Mommy

  • September 4, 2011 4:23 pm

My sweet Leela

My beautiful baby girl, you will always be in my heart and mind.
Mommy will love you until the end of time.
My heart has an empty space
But I will always see your beautiful face.

Your sandy blonde hair was soft and fine,
when I looked at you, there was no denying you were mine.
I know you would have loved to dance with your sis,
If only you would have been given the chance.

Every day I look for a sign that you are around,
Like the soft whisper of a butterfly circling round.
The other day I saw a rainbow in the sky,
maybe it was your way of saying Hi.

Everyday I shed a tear,
wishing that you were here.
Until we meet in Heaven above,
Just know I am sending you my love.

Love your mommy